Good afternoon, everyone.
First let me share a piece of mucic with you.
I know it’s terrible, because I played it.
And I am sorry it’s not the worst one.
I still got something to show you.
Don’t laugh, it’s an entire story.
if you really want to understand what is it talking about, you can check my Weibo later.
This picture I painted last year.
I have another one to show you this is much better.
But this picture I painted 20 year ago.
I know you might have a question “ How it’s getting worse? “
And I also understand that most of your conclusion must be: out of imagination.
But how it happened?
I think it’s because I became an adult.
Since we became adults, we started being afraid of making mistakes
We choose to be the best or nothing.
So we do not dare to try any mistakes.
It seems that we trapped ourselves in the overprotective world.
And since then we started to lose a lot of abilities like imagination and creativity.
What is the strategy? For me I have a special one, (it) is being a positive pessimist.
Let me explain the concept first.
To be a pessimist means you get low expectation to yourself and you prepared to lose.
And what about being positive?
It is easy to understand it means you make best effort on everything and you have a strong willin of winning the game.
But if you combine these concepts together it seems like a paradox.
Yes I think so but I also think it is the way the world is born to be,
And it really works in the reality.
We can always find something around us, they have totally opposite two sides.
But they combine together and work well together.
So how to be a positive pessimist.
Let me share some experiences with you.
I know I’m not old enough to tell stories. But these stories really meant to me.
The first one back to 2012.
It’s the first time I became a TV series producer.
But as you know, I am an actress and singer.
But work as a producer was totally unfamiliar for me.
So you remember first I have to be pessimist.
I had to imagine what will be the worst consequence.
I think the worst result must be no one would buy it.
And I will lose both time and money.
And the whole investment equal to the revenue I earned by acting for the past few years.
And what about the whole market?
In China only 20% of TV series can finally (be) sold and broadcast on TV.
What about the rest 80%?
In the past, they just change into a pipe of tapes.
Now even worse, we just (have) only data left
So I asked myself several times “Can you really accept the worst consequence?”
I think yes, at least I could try So I started shooting.
Remember, next step, I have to be positive.
Because I am a huge digital fan so I decided to use some high techniques in my TV series.
I focus on 4K resolution.
What 4K is? Let me explain.
Usually you see a film on the screen in a movie theatre the size is 2K.
But 4K means is 4 times larger than 2K.
And it also means 50mb per frame.
You might still be a little bit confused.
It’s OK. Don’t worry, you just have to remember it was a huge obstacle in front of all the TV series
group in China.
Because before us, only a few groups tried to 4K resolution.
They input 4K but no one really tried output 4K productions.
Because it was really hard.
Director Zhang Yimou was trying in his film Coming Home for the
And when we finished the shooting work when we entered.
The post production work the real nightmare came. use at that time our technical support was RED, which is the biggest digital camera company in America.
Their feedback was they use HP base station in America.
It was too expensive we can not even afford that.
So we decided to assemble out black Apple and we tried the outcome mode from dozens of combinations.
After six months work we succeed, My TV series “The Ladies” became the first TV series in China which output real 4K resolution production.
And I succeeded in selling it and with a very good performance on TV.
So after this experience I learnt don’t be afraid to take huge challenges.
You can prepared to lose but conquer it with grit.
The next story happened last year.
I took an invitation from Bear Grylls, is there anyone know that?
You might thought I was crazy.
Yes, this man who stands on the top of the food chain, he almost eat everything.
Me too, You might thought I was crazy, yeah before that
I did no physical activities I have very bad body condition.
I was afraid of a lot of things, I was afraid of height and insects.
I didn’t even dare to take a roller coaster.
But I almost took this invitation immediately.
Because I truly understand if I lose this chance I would never earn it back in the rest of my life.
So I decided to take the adventure.
During the 20 days adventure I caught rats, I caught mice, I ate insects…
But I didn’t drink the urine.
I almost cried every day in the first half journey.
And the most impressive moment was the day before the last day.印象最深刻的是倒数第二天
I still remember the day our mission was to across to a canyon just through a rope hanging between two cliffs.
You can see from the picture but you can’t see the width it’s very long
And the standard posture is leaning your whole body onto the rope.
And use one of legs backside to hookup the rope with the ankle.用一只脚的脚裸缠绕住绳子
And pull yourself from one side to the other.
When it was my turn, Bear said “Cecilia, are you really sure you want to try that
If you want to quit you can quit now because I know you can’t make balance
You can’t use your left arm.
Because I was not lucky before that mission about two days ago I hurt my left arm, my nerves system got injured.
And my little finger kept shaking for a whole day I can’t even control that
I barely can not use my left arm.
So as a pessimist I have to imagine the worst consequence.
Because it was a reality show.
You know reality show is very dangerous if you can’t perform 100% well.
Sometimes it means you will face savage criticism online later.
And I might fall down again, or I hurt my left (right) arm as well.
So I have been thinking about should I really have to try that我问自己真的要尝试吗
I think at least I won’t die
So what? I decided to take that mission.
But (when) I really lean my body onto that rope it was far more scary than I thought.
You can see from the picture (because) my posture (as)
My team member said my posture was so ugly.
Because she said I was just like a dead caterpillar hanging there.
I just kept my half body on one side, and left the rest part on the other side.
And it’s not the worst one.
The worst was because my arm couldn’t hold my upper body and my head.
So I could not face up I could not see the end.
So what should I do?
I know that I have to think positive. I also know that
Sometimes being positive doesn’t mean you just speak out some propagandas.
You have to do something for real
But at that moment the only thing I could see was a rock just 3 meters ahead nothing else.
So I decided to set small targets, so I focus on that rock.
There is something magical happens when I really concentrated to that rock.
I forgot about the height. I forgot about keeping balance.
And even forgot about the end.
I just remember to focus on that and pull myself.
Then I started seeking more targets in front of me.
And any tiny objects became glittering images in front of me.
After tried several times, I realized that I was so close to the end.
And finally, I succeeded.
So after that experience I learnt there is no shame to a loser.
You just need to set small targets, and devote yourself.
So these stories which happened to me shaped me as a positive pessimist.
And until today I know that I’m still a bad piano player, a bad painter, and not a very successful producer
But I love to be a positive pessimist.
I know nothing can stop me being better.